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  • I am not cool, but he was.
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  • Running for the shelter...
  • Upon realizing and then remarking that I had never heard her belch in the almost 7 years I have known her.

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Down in the ATX.

Back when I first moved to Austin for school, oh those many years ago, I lived in a co-op on West Campus. It was "clothing optional." We had weekly meetings to discuss house business and once, the meeting broke up in tears and screams over whether or not the house should buy Cheerios. My second semester there I nabbed the best room in the house (Only because I got up early on the morning of the room draw - something my house mates didn't often do.), the room with the foil-walled closet where people liked to spend nights tripping on acid. Home, sweet home.

Among the many characters living in the house was a quiet, trench-coated girl with long braids who had a pet rat. A rat that she carried around with her. In her shirt. Everywhere. I don't think I heard her speak more than 10 words the whole time we lived in the same house. I called her Rat Girl. Rat Girl was only one of the people I was happy to say goodbye to that May I moved out. I moved into a cute one bedroom, and then a house with friends from high school, and then to New York.

I've been back in Austin for almost 5 years. And I see Rat Girl around town. I saw her today on the Congress Avenue Bridge sidewalk. She was perched on her bike looking down into the river.  Sometimes I see the guy who used to wait on Mandy and I all the time at Magnolia. It always makes me smile to see my friend, Cyndi, on her bike in South Austin. This weekend we were having breakfast at my taco joint, where everyone knows me, my order, my husband, my family. A few friends showed up. Something happens in my heart when I see people I love, like or just know when I don't expect it. It's like a little burst of confetti.

This happens a lot here. It's one of the many things I love about living in this town.

April 03, 2007 | Permalink | Comments (1)

And Alex Calls Me a Sharer.

So today I stepped away from the Pink Office of Development at work to help out at the spring break camp we're running this week. I was there to hang out with a gang of small hooligans while they ate lunch. Man, did I get some dish.

Naomi, who I'd put at around 7 years-awesome, was very forthcoming about her family situation as she stood to eat her Lunchables. She has no dad. And one time a long time ago her dad wanted her mom to pay child support for $260,000 and she wouldn't and so he stole her baby brother. And she and her sister and 2 brothers all have the same birthday. She seemed totally cool with all of that, especially the part about sharing her birthday with her siblings.

Kristen, 9, told me that when she was a tiny baby her mom was doing a lot of drugs and smoking and she used to take her to daycare but then the police came and took her away from her mom because she could have been stolen because her mom wasn't paying attention. She has a new mom now and was very interested when Naomi said that she'd only seen her dad once, in court.

"You went to court?" Kristen asked.

Naomi was very nonchalant about court. "My dad has black eyes but my mom says they're red."

I also spent some time with Amelia, 5 and sporting the classic Daniel Johnston t-shirt, and Spencer, 9. We were the lunch stragglers because I had to go get Spencer a sandwich -- somebody ate his lunch at snack time. Amelia is just easily distracted and therefore slow. We talked about the fact that I have a baby in my stomach the size of a large pickle. Spencer and I discussed the practicality of water births and looked over his drawings of mutant fish. I think the Squidapeye was my favorite.

I suggested to Amelia as she was leaving to join the others in the gym that it might be a good idea for her to go to the bathroom and wash her face. She told me, as she skipped out of the room, "That probably would be a good idea because I have kidney problems."   

March 13, 2007 | Permalink | Comments (0)

Favorite Pregancy Dreams So Far, or, I Am Actually as Crazy as I Thought.

- The one in which I was putting together a Spoon show at some weird circular theater. Co-starring: Britt Daniel; my grade school friend, Tasha Taylor (who I saw on House that night); and junior high best friend, Cari Phillips.

- The one in which I fell into the River Seine and was washed away to some countryside estate where menacing robot-people threatened to do something menacing and I killed one with my bare hands in the back of a station wagon.

- The one in which everyone on my dad's side of the family was gathered at my great grandmother's house getting ready to go to a titty bar. Best line of the dream (said by my mother): "I don't really like porn because of all the sweaty pubic hair."

February 27, 2007 | Permalink | Comments (1)

Answer: a trashcan

Me: (walking into the bedroom, a q-tip in one ear) You know what this room needs?

Him: [Something not quite audible] women.

Me: Did you say eight women or Asian women?

Him: I said naked women. Although eight, Asian, naked women would be fine too.

February 26, 2007 | Permalink | Comments (0)

Mama is here.

There were so many beautiful moments from this last weekend. So many picture-perfect snapshots into what my life looks like on a daily basis. First there was pissing off the waiter on Vivo's lovely patio by trying to squeeze too many people at one table. "It's just bad for business," he said. And we were all drinking.

I knew that going home after dinner to change into my Regular Baby t-shirt before heading to the kickball game was a good idea. Showing support by sporting team colors is critical in the cut-throat world of kickball. But picking up my megaphone on the way out the door was a great idea. When we walked up to the stands and sat near the only other people on our side I said, "Hi. I'm Sonnet. You're going to hate me."

I scare people at sporting events even without a megaphone so that might hint at the spectacle the kickball fans and players enjoyed. I'm pretty sure one of the opposing team's players and I almost fell in love. I'm positive that I tried to get the ump to fall in love with me. Peter thought I was cute. And he's right. He smiled at me while pretending to ignore my constant "Hey Peter. How ya doin'?"But he was a little scared. So was the woman I'm trying to get to hire me for a big important position. Maybe it was when I touched her boob. I'm not saying that I have the power to rule the world, but our team lost by the smallest margin yet. Thank Mama.

Just to go ahead and prove to the world at large that me with a megaphone makes the world a little brighter, I took it to the Blue Theater where I'm pretty sure I got in a fight with someone for trying to commandeer the megaphone for show tunes. I thought he should just go ahead and fuck off. "You need to learn to respect the Mama," were my exact words.

I ended the night with a parting, "Goodnight Motherfuckers!" and then, "Mama out." When I asked my friend the next day who I should expect to hate me, she said, "You were hilarious. I think people loved you just a little more."

And my baby cousin Calei and her boyfriend were here for the weekend. It was nice to have family here. Especially family with a case of obsessive neatness. Yeah. She cleaned under my bed. Plus, she's got the cutest giggle you ever heard. (Cal - WWGD.)

I've been referring to myself to Mama for a month or so. It's starting to catch on. I'm not blind to the Freudian implications of acting more maternal towards all my friends and family as I continue the vagina-invading death march, "Infertility Drama 2.75". (For those of you keeping track, that is now the official title of the whole thing. Please make a note.) I've been in therapy longer than you. Have too. The Mama bit is just my own brand of cognitive therapy. Mama works for me. I'm currently recruiting members for my posse. Mama takes care of her own.

That leads me to my favorite moment of the weekend. I, sun and margarita-soaked, was sitting next to Alex at dinner with a big group of people and the conversation splintered off. I said something to him in Mama-speak. Mama needs this or Mama knows that. Alex looked at me, his voice barely above a whisper, his tone drier than cottonmouth, and said, "I'm not calling you Mama."

After almost eight years (Eight years in 13 days. Mama is nothing if not precise.) it said so much -- how different we are, what a challenge it can be to make those differences work in the life we make together, how in those moments when the awareness of all those ways we're different meets up with that thing that brought us together (Alex=funny=Sonnet smooch Alex), and we feel the length of each day of those eight years -- it's really, really nice to be his bird.*

* This should not in any way influence someone's decision not to mark the eight year anniversary of the first time he kissed me with a gift.

April 17, 2006 in day | Permalink | Comments (5)

MaxedPotato

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This kid can suck his thumb like a champ, sing along while his dad plays the drums, and, oh yeah, he's really fucking cute.

{Click photo for more of the tub o'baby.}

March 16, 2006 | Permalink | Comments (1)

I am not cool, but he was.

Yeah, there's a photo up on Dooce's site of her devoted and handsome husband, Jon, wearing a swimcap that I gave her. What the photo does not show is what a retard I was when I met her. I wanted to be cool. Really. I failed. Horribly. But I had been taking care of mentally unwell people all weekend and we all know how mentally unwell I am, so there was a reason, but still, I really, really wanted to be cool.

My grandfather died last week. He had been sick for a long, long time, and it was not a surprise to anyone, but I spent a lot of time with him when I was little, when my dad was dying. He was a quiet man. He used to take me for ice cream pretty much whenever I wanted. He had nose hairs that size a small twigs. He ate chopped raw onions with almost every meal.

I wrote his obituary yesterday. I've now written the obituaries for both of my biological grandfathers. Here is a small part of the story of George Chester:

George Chester Hall died peacefully on Thursday, March 9th. George was born in Decatur, Texas in 1922, one of six children. In 1939 he lied about his age to join his oldest brother, Howard, in the Texas National Guard. He, along with his brother, brother-in-law, and most of the 2nd Battalion, 131st Field Artillery, became prisoners of war when the Dutch surrendered the Island of Java to the Japanese in March of 1942. Save for the year he and a small group of prisoners spent lost and starving in the Burmese jungle, he was in a Japanese prison camp, first in Java, and then in Burma for 42 months. There he and the rest of his Battalion worked to build the, Burma-Siam Death Railway, made famous in the film The Bridge Over the River Kwai. After his year lost in the jungle, he returned to the prison camp. His brother was dying of Dysentery and George was to be executed for his escape, so Howard and George switched dog tags in order to save George’s life. Their parents believed it was George, and not Howard who had died in the camp until George returned to the US and called to tell them otherwise.

Back in Texas, he was admitted to a military hospital in San Antonio where he met his sister Grace’s friend, Betty Jean Campbell. They were married October 26th, 1945. Except for his long, frequent trips to the grocery store to do her bidding, they were together until Betty died in 1988 of ovarian cancer. George and Betty lost an infant son, Ricky in 1946, a son-in-law, Stephen in 1977, and another son, Robert in 1996.

George worked for GTE for over 35 years, first as the only telephone man in Carrollton, Texas when he and his family moved there in 1959, and then as a test board operator. In 1988 a co-worker of George’s learned that he had never applied for the military awards and commendations he was set to receive. On July 5th, 1988, months before his wife, Betty died, George was presented his awards, including a purple heart and five bronze stars in a surprise ceremony at his office by U.S. Rep.Dick Armey, R-Denton. Surrounded by his family, George told the Dallas Morning News that “stubbornness” had kept him going during his horrific years in the war. He was a lifelong Methodist and labor liberal Democrat, serving as a Divisional Union Steward for CWA for many years.

He is survived by his daughters, Patti*, the Reverend Doctor Georjean and her husband Doctor Mike, and Jannette; his grandchildren, Reese and Kristi, Barry and Cyndi, Mandi and Chris, Sonnet and Alex, and his devoted baby, Calei and her partner Elliott; and his great-grandchildren, Tyler, Hannah, and Madison, and Caitlin; his brother, Hugh T., and his Sister-in-Law, Christa.

* Last names removed to protect the crazy.

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March 16, 2006 | Permalink | Comments (1)

Manwich

I know, I know, forgive me, but I so want to be in the middle of this.

March 08, 2006 | Permalink | Comments (7)

Running for the shelter...

In case you were wondering what happens when you up your dosage of anti-depressant/anti-anxiety medication and start a new prescription, a sedative, at the same time, under doctor's orders, in case you were wondering about all that, I'll just go ahead and tell you. First there is the crying. This is something you've been doing off and on for a couple of days anyway. There are babies everywhere around you. Austin has been hit with some kind of fucking pandemic. There are reminders everywhere of what you don't have - what you are missing. You will have lunch across the table from a charming 7 year-old you've just met who is interested in discussing how weird it is that a baby can come out of such a small spot. Together you will imagine other humorous places a baby could come out of. She will find this hilarious.

She will, of course, ask you if you have kids. Then she will ask you if you are a teenager. For the first time in almost thirteen years you will wish the answer to that question is 'yes.'

When you first take the sedative, you will feel slightly off-balance. Do not panic. This is normal. As time goes on and you evaluate your physical and psychological experience you will not feel sedate. You will however feel as though something very large and heavy, let's say both of the Samoan Twins tied together in the same diaper, is sitting on top of you.

You will get mad at your dog because he accidentally steps on your foot. You will get very, very mad at him.

Then there is the crying. It is epic, hysterical, non-cathartic. You walk to the bedroom to begin your nightly bedtime rituals and collapse on the bed heaving and saying, quietly, to no one in particular, "Please, please, please, please," and "No, no, no, no." Your husband will be very concerned.

You will try to sleep, after all, this is a sedative. That's what they give hysterical, grieving women to make them sleep, right? You will twitch through most of the night, sleeping sporadically, fitfully.

You will wake up exhausted. The bags under your eyes are a rainbow of colors. You will stay in your pajamas on the couch all day. Your husband, so busy and stressed out at work, will be more concerned when he walks in the door at the end of the day with hamburgers and you begin to cry into yours. This will continue until the drug finally makes its way completely out of your system. You will not be taking it again.

March 08, 2006 | Permalink | Comments (2)

Upon realizing and then remarking that I had never heard her belch in the almost 7 years I have known her.

"My belches are decidedly demure. You can quote me on that."

--Miss B. Louise

Done.

March 01, 2006 | Permalink | Comments (3)

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